Happy New Year and Happy Monday to all!
As we are wont to do at this time of year, and as much of the blogosphere is doing, I too spent the past few days reading about and thinking about the last year, my life, and how to move forward, cause forward we must go.
And I realized a couple of things:
First of all, doing the year in review post forced me to go back and reread most of last year’s posts and let me just go ahead and apologize for all the whining. Because, seriously, I annoyed myself, so I can’t imagine how the rest of you kept reading! Which brings me to my first “resolution” (what, you really thought I wasn’t going to do them?), this year I’m going to try and take a long hard look at what upsets me and try to put it into perspective. Which brings me to the second thing I realized.
One of the comments to this post in the “Living with Leukemia” series really hit home and made me realize that what I dubbed The Worst Year Ever, really wasn’t. Because let’s be honest while December 2009 was indeed T.W.C.O.A.T (the worst Christmas of all time) cause the husband was diagnosed with leukemia and at the time the outlook was crappy cause he had one of the most aggressive forms of leukemia, one of the hardest to treat because it hit two cell types and blah, blah, blah, 2010 was in fact not a bad year at all. What? that’s not what you’ve been saying at all, Moomser, have you gone crazy? Well, I realized this very simple thing: the husband is here, and he’s better. So 2010 is most certainly not T.W.Y.E. because that would have entailed a scenario I’d rather not think about. So my second “resolution” is to hold on a second and think, think, think (as Pooh would say) before coming up with stupid generalizations and acronyms.
And this segues straight to the other thing I realized, which applies to both my life and my writing (cute, huh?). I need to review my adjectives. Last year was stressful, tiring, scary, irritating, sometimes terrifying, often exhausting cause it was sleepless and worrisome, and upsetting but it was not horrible, it was not “the worst”. And here’s the “resolution” remember to always look at the good that always counterbalances the bad, cause last year was also, beautiful, hopeful (as in really full of hope), amazing, fun and funny, and so many more adjectives that aren’t coming to me now. Because, and I didn’t really mention this enough in the past posts but we have the girl and the boy, and they made it all bearable, they made it all better.
So to recap, the husband is here, he’s better, he’s not great but he’s improving steadily every day. We’ve got two wonderful children that light up our lives. We’ve got food on the table, a roof over our heads and money for rent and stuff. I’ve got my health, my youth (yes, my youth), my beauty (shut up! This is one of those motivational posts, m’kay?!), and my sense of humor. We’re hanging on to our marriage, we’ve learned some important lessons, we’ve become better, stronger and hopefully kinder and more tolerant through them.
So hat’s off to you 2010, cause though you were a hard year, you were not a bad year, and you made us the better for it.